lying on the floor

Today I feel defeated. I feel overwhelmed, sad, alone, confused, and so many other things. And honestly it leaves me FRUSTRATED more then anything. I know that I am not alone, God has placed AMAZING people in my life and I know that I should not be overwhelmed because God won't give me more then I can handle. And I know this is where I am suppose to be and I know that I have an impact and that my life means something, but today I just want to be done. I want to just lay on the floor and be done. Today I feel like "what in the world am I doing here?" and I know that is my selfishness. I know that is me wanting the easy road. This week I have dealt with some very complicated things and I have not been sleeping well! The combination I know has brought me to this point of both physical and mental exhaustion! I just want to cry, oh wait I already did! :) I know this will pass and I know it is all only making me stronger God is stretching me and today I just wanted to be honest with you and let you know that the stretching hurts! Please pray that I would have wisdom and that I would have the courage to keep seizing every divine appointment God places in front of me! I know the only way to get over this selfishness and pity party is to serve and love others so I pray God would place a great opportunity in front of me today!! I love you guys and I'm sorry if my rambling doesn't make sense to you! I told Tina that inside my head was a complicated place to be!! :)