Honesty

Well it's been a month and a half since I blogged (sorry Lou). But to be honest I know I was putting it off. There have been so many events this past month and a half, I've been to Robbinsville twice, been in and out of Charlotte and gone home for my brother's wedding and I promise to start blogging on those events soon but first I need to come clean. I haven't been blogging because I have been up and down so often that I never knew what to say. I would start to blog on an event and act like everything was great but reality was my heart was hurting and my mind was spinning. The week after my road trip I couldn't even begin to tell you what I WANTED to do next and that was extremely hard. I took a week and did some real soul searching. It ended well and for the first time I could say what I would choose to do next and that would be to go back to Robbinsville and help camp out and invested some time there. Since then I have been trying to figure that all out and it is still a process. I have enjoyed all the adventures but the transitions have been painful. One I hate saying see ya laters and two it is so hard not being settled somewhere. So I will try and pick this back up but I will need a little grace when I have hope in one post and the next one I feel like the world is falling a part! That is where I am on this journey, trying to hold on to hope, follow the Lord and keep fighting even though at times I wish it all would end!