Cage of Fear

I finished reading Wild Goose Chase today and have been thinking a lot about some of the points the book makes. First of all the Wild Goose Chase is all about pursuing God and all the ups and downs and twist and turns that come with the adventure of following the Wild Goose (God). The author discusses a couple different cages that keep us from the chase. There is the cage of guilt, the cage of assumption, the cage of fear and some others. Right now I am thinking about that cage of fear. I am so nervous about the decision to move to Robbinsville because I have some definite fears. If you know me I tend to not give myself credit and tend to feel unwanted and am not big on being by myself. With that I have some fears about living on my own and wondering if I will even be able to do anything to help camp and the people there or simply make a difference. I know that is a crazy thought but none the less it is a lie satan feeds me and often I believe it. I want to fight that. I don't want to put God in a box or not trust him. Now a final decision hasn't been made and I'm not packing my bags just yet, however I think that it will be soon, and I think I will go. I don't want the cage of fear to keep me from investing in something I love. Nor do I want my fear to keep me from the adventures God has for me. The next few days should be interesting! 

Missin NC

I just wanted to say that I have a bad case of missing NC and all the AMAZING people! I saw this little blonde girl yesterday and she was just running all around and from a far she looked like Lucy and at first I was like "oh Lucy and Ashley yeah!!" oh but then I was like yeah they don't live in FL. Then I was driving my car and there were two girls riding their bikes and I thought man I wish that could be Kinsley and Lydia or Abby and Paige. Yeah but again they don't live in FL either!! I miss you guys all SO MUCH!! I pray that I get to be back up there again SOON!!

*I am thankful for all the people in the fort too!! And when I go back to NC I will miss you guys!! It's a vicious cycle!! haha

A Full Saturday

Well I finally unpacked my bags yesterday! Yes I have been home for almost a week but I just dropped all my stuff in my room when I got home and left it where it was. Honestly I think I did it because I didn't want to settle in here, and I still don't want to settle in but I could barely move around in my room. Also I was able to do some reasoning in my head that I wasn't settling rather reorganizing. I mean if I'm going back to NC then I need to pack up some winter clothes and get rid of some of my summer attire. After that adventure and a load of laundry, Matty and I washed our cars. Bethany, Jordan and Joel stopped by and Bethany also washed her car. It was quit the event! ha ha! 

Then after such a productive morning I got ready and headed to Shannon and Justin's wedding. It was very nice and the reception was pretty. Shannon was beautiful and I wish the best for them. Wow another friend married! How did I get this old!?!

Here Ya Go Mrs. Vicki

Mrs. Vicki tagged me for a meme(like her I have no idea what that means) but since I love her I am going to post this!! Only I'm not playing by the rules (ha ha) I am just going to answer the questions and leave it at that!!

10 Years Ago I:
1. Was 14 years old and a freshman in High School!
2. Hanging out with Leslie or Liz every free moment!
3. Very involved in my youth group!
4. Making the best Bible video EVER (or maybe it was the next year)!!
5. Getting in trouble in my math class because it bored me!!

5 Things On Today's "To Do" List:
1. Post on my blog so Tina can keep up with me (check)!
2. Email Kinsley (by far one of the coolest 9 yr olds ever)!!
3. Look up Churches to visit for Camp!
4. Read more of my book (Wild Goose Chase)!
5. Go to Metro!

5 Snacks I Enjoy:
1. Ice Cream
2. Popcorn
3. Wheat Thins
4. Rice Cakes
5. Twisted Cheetos

5 Places I've Lived:
1. Ft. Myers, FL
2. Gainesville, FL
3. Charlotte, NC
4. Robbinsville, NC (I know not technically but two summers and plenty of time in between)
5. ????

5 Jobs I Have Had:
1. Babysitting for a ton of different people
2. Daycare teacher for 3 yr olds, Nursery Worker (what was that title again for when I ran the counter Tina?? he he)
3. Administrative Assistant For College and Career
4. Leader Room Leader & Volunteer at Ridge Church
5. Summer Staff at Whisper Mountain

You Might Be A Redneck...

...if your dad sets up a tree stand in the backyard and puts his fake deer in the neighbors yard to practice his bow hunting!! Priceless!!

Ordination and House Hunting

Well this weekend I went to Robbinsville for David's Ordination. It was a weekend full of surprises. One being that Mandie came down and surprise David which was by far my favorite surprise. Another one being that saturday morning at breakfast David and Dana told us they were expecting number 4. So exciting for them. Everything went really well saturday, David was ordained and sunday afternoon they had a ceremony and some cake to celebrate. It was really neat to get to be there. 

My parents also came up for his ordination and to look at some houses. We are trying to find a place for me to rent so I can spend some time in Robbinsville helping camp out. I want to go help do some promoting for camp, help out with the staff kiddos and whatever else I can do for them. Also I want to get more involved with the youth at the local church! They are phenomenal. :) We found a house that will work, now I am just waiting to see if my friend is still wanting to move with me. Craziness. Please pray for all those details, I really want things to work out. 

Well be sure to check back soon, I should have wedding pics in the next couple days!!

Honesty

Well it's been a month and a half since I blogged (sorry Lou). But to be honest I know I was putting it off. There have been so many events this past month and a half, I've been to Robbinsville twice, been in and out of Charlotte and gone home for my brother's wedding and I promise to start blogging on those events soon but first I need to come clean. I haven't been blogging because I have been up and down so often that I never knew what to say. I would start to blog on an event and act like everything was great but reality was my heart was hurting and my mind was spinning. The week after my road trip I couldn't even begin to tell you what I WANTED to do next and that was extremely hard. I took a week and did some real soul searching. It ended well and for the first time I could say what I would choose to do next and that would be to go back to Robbinsville and help camp out and invested some time there. Since then I have been trying to figure that all out and it is still a process. I have enjoyed all the adventures but the transitions have been painful. One I hate saying see ya laters and two it is so hard not being settled somewhere. So I will try and pick this back up but I will need a little grace when I have hope in one post and the next one I feel like the world is falling a part! That is where I am on this journey, trying to hold on to hope, follow the Lord and keep fighting even though at times I wish it all would end!